When I wake up in the morning the first thing I am struck by is the stillness. I walk through the dark with an intent to not disturb this immense silence. I light a candle to honour the Holy and the Benevolent nature of existence. This is more real and true in my experience than anything else.

Everything else changes and yet this is always, always the same.

When I turn on the news I am bombarded with the chaos of what is going on in the world and also what that brings up in my personal psyche. It’s intense. It hurts. It’s overwhelming. 

I sit and I meet what is here with compassion. I don’t fight it. I give it back to Life. It’s not mine. It may move through tears, shaking, rage or even poetry. I find stability in the present moment. I take care of my body. And I listen for what is next.

What is this moment calling forward in me?

I am a servant of the Beloved.

This pristine quiet and the chaotic world are not opposites although they sure seem like it sometimes. We don’t have to give up one for the other. I rely on Presence as my guide and the only thing that is truly trustworthy.

Mostly I don’t have a clue what to do next so I listen and when it becomes clear that action is required I act but not one second before.

Without an awareness of Love I’m sure I would simply perish into a whirlwind of pain and chaos.

Value Stillness above all else.

Listen to her quiet wisdom

and behold her flawless nature.

Bow to her silent immensity.

Be devoted to her

as she is devoted to you.

Rest gently in her great love

her pristine presence

her mercy.



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